This past weekend I spent some time with one of my best friends who was in town and we were reflecting on how just 3 years ago, we were single… doing our own thing… and had NO CLUE that we’d be married by now. “If you’d have told me 3 years ago that I’d be married, with a baby, and NOT living in New Orleans…. I’ve have laughed”, I told her. And it was so true. But I’ve learned in these past few years that if there’s something you want in life, to pray on it. Pray hard. And be specific in your prayer and just watch God work. God works in mysterious ways, and in some cases, He works fast! It’s incredible to see God work, too. Whether it’s in the moment or in the aftermath, I’m always in awe with the blessings He has put in my path.
And while I had always WANTED to be a wife and a mother, just a few years ago it wasn’t necessarily my focus. My career as a full time blogger was taking off. I had just gotten back from a 6-figure, 6-city tour. I had just moved into my downtown bachelorette pad. I was traveling and taking solo trips as often as I could. Life was good. I had prayed for these things. And then I’d end my prayers with “Oh, and if you want to throw in a great man to marry one day, that’d be cool too… no pressure.” It was something I wanted, but I had slowly started to convince myself that it just might not be in the cards for me.
Then, I had turned to one of my favorite books, The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson. I had remembered that I needed to be more specific in my prayers as I had done before. That praying for a husband or a family wasn’t out of reach because it’s GOD I’m praying to and he can do wondrous things!
The more faith you have, the more specific your prayers will be and the more specific your prayers are, the more glory God receives… If our prayers aren’t specific, however, God gets robbed of the glory that He deserves because we second guess whether or not He actually answered them. We never know if the answers were the result of specific prayer or general coincidences that would have happened anyway.
The Circle Maker, Mark Batterson
Like I said, before I had gotten more specific with my prayers, marriage and a family was just an afterthought. I had been so grateful for the blessings as a single woman that I had been given that I didn’t want to seem ungrateful or that God just wasn’t giving enough. If anything, I didn’t want to bother the old man when I knew that there were so many other people in this world with what I thought were more significant problems and even bigger prayers than my own wants and desires to just be a mother and one day get married.
But who is to say that my desire to be a wife and mother was insignificant? God put that desire in my heart for MANY years, far before any of the other blessings He had given me in my life. The only people who reminded me that those desires were insignificant or that I was silly for even wanting those things to begin with are those who God graciously removed from my life. Perhaps to remind me that His love for me is greater, that He would one day follow through on this promise He has placed in my heart if only I would rely on HIM and trust in HIS glory – and not worry about the opinions of others.
So there I was, already blessed, wanting God to fill a void that HE knew only HE could fill if I would just ask Him to and trust that He would.
Nothing honors God more than a big dream that is way beyond our ability to accomplish. Why? Because there is no way we can take credit for it. And nothing is better for our spiritual development than a big dream because it keeps us on our knees in raw dependence on God.
The Circle Maker , Mark Batterson
This morning, I’ve been in my feelings. Positive ones, but a bit emotional. I’ve just been thinking of how my life has changed in these past few years and it was all because of God. Now don’t get me wrong, my life has also been challenging given the pandemic and adjusting to married life and motherhood but sometimes I feel like these challenges are God’s way of reminding me that He is in charge and that I need to restore my faith wholeheartedly in Him.
Just wanted to share in case you feel like you’re at a standstill with your prayer life or looking for a void in your life to be filled.
Keep praying, and be specific! Click on the book below or click here if you’re interested in purchasing this book off of Amazon. It’s really changed my life and I feel like it could change yours, too!
Un Besito,
Rocío